I was curious about sexuality and being lesbian by choice. So I asked my boyfriend, who doesn't like girly films, to watch Locked Up with me for this article. (You just can't say no to Nairobi and the pregnant lady from Money Heist).
Anyway, Curly from Money Heist said something interesting. It gets lonely, and there comes a time when you have to choose to get affection from the guards or your fellow inmates. Eventually, you choose your inmates.
Hmm.
Interesting.
So, where can I sign up to be a lesbian?
The Outside, Looking In
Piper from Orange is the New Black shared similar sentiments about becoming a lesbian in prison. She was having a hard time. I felt for her. She hadn’t eaten in days, had run into the ex that ratted her out and was bunking with the prison's night throat cutter. Later, she was thrown into the Shu for something uncalled for.
It's all so much to take in, so I understand why she came out of the Shu and went straight to Alex (her ex and nemesis) to get laid. She wasn't fully lesbian, and she said it multiple times. But in prison, everyone needs affection of some kind to get by.
I wonder whether there's a point in the outside world when things become so tough you choose to become lesbian.
And I realise lesbians, gays, or bisexuals will get worked up about this article, saying it's not something you prefer. It's something you're born with.
But, bear with me for a second, will you?
If I hate men, if, say, a man just raped me, and I wanted to become lesbian because you can at least try to fight off a woman and hope to win, can I?
Suppose things got so bad that, for one reason or another, you can't look at men in the same way again because, trust me, men can be so evil enough to live with fear for the rest of your life.
Come off Your High Tower
I can't go to town in a short dress when I look so bad in long ones. So I wear pants, mostly.
But I can't also wear tops with cleavage, even though my boobs are hardly big.
I always look down when walking down the street, just in case I lock eyes with a man and he thinks I have an interest in him.
That never works because men still grab my arm, follow me down the street demanding I tell them where I'm going, and get pissed if I don't respond.
They ask me to come off my high tower. I wonder which tower they speak of.
Look Within
I love my boyfriend. But, I do sometimes wonder:
“What if?”
Is it possible that I will evolve and become a lesbian?
I'm asking because I'm not. But, if it’s a person's choice under certain conditions to become a lesbian, even for a year, a month, or a day, to feel the orgasms Piper said she'd experienced over eight times per session. Can lesbian sex be really that good?
I can't promise I'll make a woman cum, but maybe I’ll learn a few things about how to pleasure my own body.
Well, now I'm horny, and I don't think I'll find answers this minute, so,
Boyfriend!
Where are you?
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